Small.

Small noises
its 627 in the morning.
I can hear
a dog barking
He does that every time
he's out.
Birds are singing.
My coffee is lukewarm
Ideas run through
my head
Stories and possibilities
For a character
in a game
I devote
maybe too
much time to.
I think of you.
Our legs tangled
messy kisses
in bed.
I think of the slick-sticky penetration
our bodies joined
relaxing in to that languid
relief, of panting breath
 Hands grasping.
Maybe a nap.
I think of them;
their feet stamping
voices calling
Milk and toast
cereal and carrots.
Where will you go
today my loves?
The jungle?
the sea?
on the porch with
tiny plastic animals.
A bin of sand.
Lately
recently
You've explored
old noises.
Noises from a time passed.
The old flavours
a brief thrill
nostalgia.
'Far too frail'
indeed.

it has a name.

The rejection
has a reason.
a name
a cause.
Your fears are still there-
but it's not all you.
Confessions in the fading
light of summer.
You won't even name them
not here-
respectful.
Only..
Gentle words
of support
suggestions
for
assistance.
Small steps
small.

patpat.

When she runs
her feet hit the carpet with a satisfying
patpatpatpat sound.
Often she babbles
or maybe just a long
'Oooo!', or a screech.
Her arms might flail as she seeks
to balance herself.
She runs after her sister
or for an offered treat
a cookie
Or a coveted cheese slice.
But that little sound.
Bare feet on carpet.
patpatpatpat.
Always will I savor that
small noise, often lost to traffic
as we walk
over looked
when we do our dailies.
Patpatpatpat.

Passing the break.

There's no respite
as a parent.

Says.

He says

He reached out today.

6 and nearly 2.

One is six now.
The other, smaller
almost 2.
I call them 6 and 2.
Who's counting? maybe the doctor.
Watching them
2 is running
naked
around the table.
6, my first
showering
after an afternoon
spent in chalk.
We listen
We listen to music
from when I was born.
savoring
this first day
of Summer.
A tiny voice says
It's not for you.
But for once I feel
For once I feel
like I can snap
clap
my jaws
and say
no.